“Not all those who wander are lost.”
― J.R.R. Tolkien,
I have done similar posts before and it constitutes a significant proportion of posts I have ever written.
It just shows my confused state of mind.
Thought of being a writer has always evoked strong feelings in me. There is a romantic feel to being a Writer. They are supposed to be well read & people actually pay to listen to them sometimes. They are
considered more intelligent than mere mortals.
I always thought myself to better than ordinary mortals. May be I always measured worth of a human being in terms of IQ. I was good in studies during school & it was comforting thought for my little big ego. I was always an avid reader and felt it was just a matter of time when the ideas will start coming up
I tried my hands at fiction writing a few times but failed pathetically. May be it was a sign. I have never understood Omens. I was and still too “intelligent” for that. I could never fathom the depth of relationships and emotions evoked by them. I just felt I knew everything & being an Author was an awesome vocation.
Only after I got married ( & I was lucky enough to find a great Soulmate) I realized the extent of my dumbness & social ineptness. It took me a few years to reach a stage when I was ready to take action to improve my understanding of humanity.
The attempts to create the blog started somewhere in between. I did some posts on various things under the sun. I told my friends “Blogging can be an easy way to earn money.” The universe was laughing at me but I was not listening.
After a few posts I realized I was just drifting along like Bumping cars, from one obstacle to another. May be somewhere along the roads I had traveled fate smiled at me & I ended up doing reasonably well professionally & personally.
I stopped blogging and began to look for the missing qualities, Humility, empathy, Kindness, graciousness, patience & perseverance.
I found some seeds along the way & some plants are sprouting up now.
I started to meditate & exercise more regularly.
But I realized I still missed writing.
So here I am doing what I missed.
I am still wandering & still lost, Hopefully not for long.
And I just hope blog as it helps me to find my way to the Shire.
“It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end.”
― Ursula K. Le Guin,