Journey and destination

“Not all those who wander are lost.”
J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring

I have done similar posts before and it constitutes a significant proportion of posts I have ever written.

It just shows my confused state of mind.

Thought of being a writer has always evoked strong feelings in me. There is a romantic feel to being a Writer. They are supposed to be well read & people actually pay to listen to them sometimes. They are considered more intelligent than mere mortals.

I always thought myself to better than ordinary mortals. May be I always measured worth of a human being in terms of IQ.  I was good in studies during school & it was comforting thought for my little big ego. I was always an avid reader and felt it was just a matter of time when the ideas will start coming up

I tried my hands at fiction writing a few times but failed pathetically. May be it was a sign. I have never understood Omens. I was  and still too “intelligent” for that. I could never fathom the depth of relationships and emotions evoked by them.  I just felt I knew everything & being an Author was an awesome vocation.

Only after I got married ( & I was lucky enough to find a great Soulmate) I realized the extent of my dumbness & social ineptness. It took me a few years to reach a stage when I was ready to take action to improve my understanding of humanity.

The attempts to create the blog started somewhere in between. I did some posts on various things under the sun. I told my friends “Blogging can be an easy way to earn money.” The universe was laughing at me but I was not listening.

After a few posts I realized I was just drifting along like Bumping cars, from one obstacle to another. May be somewhere along the roads I had traveled fate smiled at me & I ended up doing reasonably well professionally & personally.

I stopped blogging and began to look for the missing qualities, Humility, empathy, Kindness, graciousness, patience & perseverance.

I found some seeds along the way & some plants are sprouting up now.

I started to meditate & exercise more regularly.

But I realized I still missed writing.

So here I am doing what I missed.

I am still wandering & still lost, Hopefully not for long.

And I just hope blog as it helps me to find my way to the Shire.

“It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end.”
Ursula K. Le Guin, The Left Hand of Darkness

via Daily Prompt: Evoke


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