We do many thing in life, many a times we regret them but sometime we love what we do.
Then there are things what you have always dreamed about since you were a Kid.
I wanted to be a sci-fi author since I was a young boy. I was fascinated by watching Star Trek on my Black & white TV. Then there was He-Man & Giant Robot. Superman and Spiderman and lots of Indian comic book heroes especially the ones with weird inventions always fascinated me.
I wanted to create such stories. There were not many libraries where I grew up. I used to read everything but anything related to sci-fi fascinated me most.
I always thought if I started to read more , Ideas will start coming in & one day Goddess of creativity will smile on me to make me write better stories. So I kept reading & watching more series.
I tried my luck in a few writing competitions for creative stories but I failed miserably.
There was one simple reason, I was too lazy to write.
I was afraid of going deep into my mind ( I still am ), My stories and writing never had the depth to connect emotionally with any one. I tried to things in a very safe way. Do not shake the foundations too much as I was afraid that they will crumble under my weight.
So I wrote very little & I wrote superficially, never going deep into the human heart or touch on the emotions. I always assumed that my wit & my intelligence would be great enough to make me write great stuff. (you can always add the erotic touch to spice it up).
I never could figure out what I should write about.
So then one fine day I decided I will write about everything.
Anything under the sun, whatever catches my attention, the hot story of the day, facebook, Steve jobs, bitcoin, Parenting, health & of course my wife.
Writing helps me connect my thoughts.
I am still not at the level where I can say I have started to fathom the complexities of Human mind but when I write Some superficial layers start to come off a little bit.
When I started to write this post I expected it be a list of things on what made me start this blog, But it has turned out be something else.
I think I prefer it this way as it reflects me how I am
A confused Middle aged man who is finding roots in a strange land away from the land of his birth where everything is just so different.
And I am still very lazy.